End times?

I just finished reading the book, Hurtling Toward Oblivion. I am not an end times kind of guy. The idea that we should button up the joint and hold up in the basement has never appealed to me. The events that are happening have had me rethinking my position.

I want to be living life. Not merely existing. I want to pour myself out on the things that matter most to me. People 'should' be the first. What I am discovering is it may be people, just not the people that I say matter.

I invest time into people who want to get better or what to question if they can. I will listen for hours, days and even weeks and months to peoples struggles. People I do not know and who for the most part may not want to know me. What about my own wife and children? Why is it so hard for me to give them anywhere near the same amounts of time?

If things are wrapping up here. How do I want to spend my time? Who do I have a relationships with that needs me and is interested in me?

What if the end of the age is not here? Then what? Will that lesson the feelings of sadness and discord I have between what I say and what I do?

Either way I believe that great and amazing things are happening. If Jesus chooses to come back today or if he simply awakens His people, I want to be investing the time I have with the people who I love. I want to be able to love well and still be the change I wish to see.